I MISS THEM ALL!!!

my classmate, crazy georgian, Levan Kiknadze. may be one and only georgian i've ever met. 

Immanuel, he walked me home before he catch a bus :D 

Meredith and Eva, my flat mate, my life would be nitemare without them.

my besties, nicha, this girl is so smart, sweet and at the end of our trip, she converted to islam. 

Leo, Diogo, Me, Tina, Minako at our graduation ceremony

a long time ago..

I still remember clearly what happened 5 years ago, i was sitting in living room sofa with my sisters watching tv, it was almost dark. I was still remember when the telephone ringing. me picked up the phone, someone said my dad involved in accident and the victim is injured and we called my dad phone and it was out of reach. we freaked out. we phoned the police and he said different thing. he said, please come to the office. it was very confusing, sad, full of hope and i barely can't feel my feet in the ground. my uncle drove me to the biggest police station and the officer said nothing about my dad. he did not know anything about the accident but he said there's one guy dead reported in another police station nearby.

i'm speechless. even the police officer said he didn't know who is the guy but, i'm so scared to the death. Then, we drove to other police station, along the way, i heard Adzan Maghrib and i prayed, i just want to hug my dad. i prayed till i cried even i didn't know who is the dead guy. all i knew is my dad was in his office. at the time i was arrived, i saw my dad car, parked in front of the station, once i was relieved and when i asked the officer, he said to me to sit down and he give me hot tea and he said the most heart broken word for a daddy lil girl. yes, my dad died that night. he got heart attack when he was in therapy. 

now, while writting this blog, my goal is not to share about my shabby or shallow story, my goal is, Allah is not always answer our prayer. he did not let me hug my dad. i remember that one of my pray also, i will do whatever my dad wanted, what he said what he direct, i'll do it. but yeah, life didn't give you want you want, he give you what you need. 

My dad passed away and my family is never be the same. i always envy my friend who still have their complete family. i'm more jealous if they close with their dad, because i don't have chance to be. i still need him to suggest me everything in my life, i still need him to be with me, i still need him to tell me what should i do, who i should marry, what kind of job is better for me? but no, he's not here anymore. he's out there. 

But, life is funny. 

I turned to enroll University with major my dad picked, i turned to love what he loved. i turned to learn language that he spoke. i become more like him and i'm so damn proud, i can stand still without him. me, who is very depending daddy lil girl. 

I graduated the exact same day last year, 15 June 2012, 4 years ago, this date is nightmare, but i've finished my thesis presentation and my lectures annouced my graduation at the same time. Life is so damn funny.

I did all of this not for him. but for me. i want and always be the daddy lil girl. i don't want to leave that title, i want part of my dad is always part of me. i just want to always be his daughter. That all i can do.

The Obstacle of living abroad

Hello again!

I'm going to tell about how to prepare your self living abroad, well, may be i'm not the one who know everything, but all i share in here is only my 3 months experience living abroad. Actually, Morocco is 4 season country (don't be shock) even it is in Africa, but North Africa, 30 minutes reached by fery from Spain. Well, not only Morocco, but countries with four seasons is really different from my beloved tropical sunny and rainny Indonesia.So, let's start!

1. Weather
Check all the weather circumtances during your visit to that country. its important because if you're not get used with either very cold or very hot, it will be trouble for you to survive. Because if you get sick while you're abroad, its really painful. all the medicine is expensive. Moreover, if you from tropical country like me, it wiser to just lend a thick coat from your friend in your country and bring it also if you want to buy boots, buy it when you arrived, the price is more reasonable than in ur country.

2.Language.
Fluent in english is always helpful, but don't forget sometimes its not gonna work.because not all people fluently speaking in english so knowing the 2nd language of that countries also good for your preparation, buy small pocket of daily language will help you survived.

3.Food
Bring some spices from your countries and mixed it with ingredients originally from your destination country just to make your belly not reject the taste of the new food or simply eat something internationally.

4.Culture.
Understanding how the community works in that countries also benefit to survive. For example, the religion majority, the custom and behaviour of people, how to asked question to native, how they live in family, how they speak to older and younger people? how they study? and many more 5W and H. You can simply google it or read the news.

5.Embassy and Student Organization.
If your country have embassy in that country, get in touch with them. no matter what happend they are your guard in that country, visit them once in a while just to make sure that they know you're alive or simply healthy. However, get in touch with student from your country who studying there also beneficial, actually they are really excited if there will be new comers. they will help all the things you need and for the bonus the will become your guide while you traveling throughout the country.

Well, that's only five, yeah its not so hard to living abroad if you come prepared. cheers. 

About Ibn Batuta Scholarship

Dear anyone, whoever you are who read my very quite blog, i want to share about my short course to morocco, hope you're enjoying my blog! I'm going to make it Q&A so you don't have to read my non sense writing. kekeke!

1.What is the name of the scholarship?
The name of the scholarship i applied is "Ibn Batuta Scholarship for Peace and Diplomacy"

2.Do we have to pay the admission for applying?
This scholarship is free of charge since its only apply by online.

3.How about the chance to win this scholarship?
This scholarship is known worldwide (for people who studying arabic) and very competitive. If there's 200 applicants, only 5 who'll get the scholarship.

4. What is the differences between the full and partial scholarship?
The full scholarship covered housing and tuititon fees. The partial only tuition fees.

5.What covered and not covered by this scholarship?
The full scholarship winner gets housing include appartment, wifi, pick up bus, breakfast and tuition fees and this scholarship didn't give you cash for living cost and airfare neither you're full or partial winner.

6. What is the name of the institution?
The name of the school i attended is Qalam wa Lawh centre for arabic studies in Rabat.

7.How's the method of learning?
This school adopted America method in learning arabic, actually its really effective. everyday all the staff and teachers try to speak in arabic and they also really try to not use english around school. also, everyday you have to prepare a story to tell in front of your class and twice a week there will be an excurcion around Rabat, either go to museum or historical places, just to get used to with arabic speakers.

8.How's the exam and standard of the school?
There are 9 level offered in the school and every level duration is 4 weeks and every two weeks there is an exam, middle exam and at the end of the month is final and presentation exam. The minimum point to passed is 60, below 60 you remained in that level.

9.Do we get transcript and certificate?
Yes, at the end of your study.

10.How long we have to wait for the annoucment?
One or two month after the deadline date. It published in facebook page and they will email you.

I hope you'll find this Q&A section very helpful, actually there's not so many things to do to apply this scholarship if you read all the instruction here, but i just want to make it clear :) Happy applying! 

Eligible

In this cold rainy morning,i took train from Kinetra to Rabat with my fellow Indonesian after attending seminar about Indonesia Islamic understanding. Frankly speaking, we just knew each other this morning and every single time i know someone new they always asked me "what will you do after come to Indonesia?" well, fool me, i still confused to choose which answer will be the most honest and pure from my heart. it seems -me,being here right away after i graduated- was a very sudden event in my life. i really can't help my self to answer every question with very strong decision and willingness. yeah i want to work, but can i? and even i want to pursue my master, do i have eligible criteria? oh God, how could i respond all this question and moreover, responsible for what i've done?

"knock-knock,  hello, are you there answer?"

Typical Weekend

I've been spending time with my morocco friends these days. They just so lovely!

Lunch with Bursha, France teacher in Dar al bayda and for additional info, she is k-pop fans too!

Dinner with morocco boys in their appartment in Sale, so much fun and laughter and the funny question is "would Indonesia women marry with morocco man and stay in morocco?"kekekekke~

Alhamdulillah, Fursah Saidah! 

Tajine

The first day i arrived in Rabat, my moroccons friend pick me up with her dad and after one month in here we're kinda busy and always cancelled our hang out time but we manage our saturday afternoon meeting and her family invite me to have lunch in their beautiful house and they served tajine, morocco traditional food which is superb! Thanks to Abla! Love this girl. 

Temara Beach, no wave at all. very dissapointing.

Bab-al Had

I'm very blessed to know Mas Sukmahadi before i went to Morocco, he's just very helpful and kind enough to reply all my messages and question. 

i just love Rabat sky, yes?

The king grave with Hassan tower, it should be the tallest tower in the world but the construction is  stopped

He taught me how the busses and tram way working in Rabat, indeed very helpful and the best thing is he took me to Bab al-had, very cheap market and all stuff is made in china! i just can't stand cheap price. Oh God.

Moroccons style

Life so far..

My guardian angels, my flat mate Eva and Meredith

Its kinda new for me, everything in here. i never knew that i would be this shock living in Rabat, although its very fine city. in here is less populated, less traffic and i find my self enjoying walking. that's new. but two weeks in here is the solid work for me, i miss my family like everyday, i feel itchy all over my body and it was turned out allergy and i don't know what kind allergy is effected my body and my new hobby is eating. i just eat like everytime. i'm tired with all the new activties in class and in club. but at the same time i'm overjoyed to meet new friends and people and i met. 

Congraduation

My graduation ceremony! Congrats for all 2008 UI students. I hope great future waiting us!

Our "temporary" rector, he was ITB rector before.

F4 man and women

its tradition that the new student singin for the graduates

my advisor and head of Arab studies 

my beloved family

Decision decision decision

Life is all about deciding something, if it was stupid i won't regret it, but i just want to feel the happiness

-@ Thamrin city office building, Six floor, Instaforex office. 

A for Alhamdulillah

Finally, I earned my bachelor degree. very happy yet still in normal mode since i really need to gain my knowledge and expand my networking. it was last friday my thesis presetation and i didn't nervous at all,  my beloved besties, Fitri came over in the morning and help me practice my presentation. so much love!

Fitri Fazrianti 

me, Dr. Apipupin, Tutur Furqan, Suranta M., Hum

Tutur Furqan S., Hum 

suddenly out of nowhere, there is this guy come in with his bright smile with my family. such an adorable boy you are dear :)

my family minus my big sister

At first, i was very shock bcoz my advisor told me only D-3 and i'm quite sure that i didn't have much time to do preparation but it turned out very well at the end. I'm very blessed and grateful to be loved right now, thanks dear mom for all your support and prayer, my big sister for her positive mind and motivation and my 3 younger sister for light up my life and ofcourse, dear R, you know me so well lah! :) I also want to say thanks to Fitri Fazrianti and Tutur Furqan for such a good company during this last semester, much love for both of you!

pertamax!

ceritanya, di skipped dulu yah bahasa inggrisnya. sejak 31 Maret 2012 demo besar-besaran di Jakarta soal kenaikan BBM terjadi, gw sama sekali nggak ikut campur, sebagai pihak yang berusaha netral namun pro, sulit untuk memposisikan diri sebagai demonstrans. well then, seperti biasa, gw mengisi bensin di pom bensin deket rumah, tadi sekitar jam 21.30. biasa aja sih, premium masih 4500 dan pertamax 10.200! DANG! kaget bukan main, gila! ini gimana orang-orang mau pindah ke pertamax kalo harganya beda 100% sama premium. thats my first point. gw aneh juga sih sama pemerintahan kita, strateginya gimana dah. point yang kedua adalah tiba-tiba gw keinget pas kemarin nyobain jadi singaporeans selama 7 hari. bensin yang katanya disana 15.000/liter itu nggak jadi masalah karena mass transport nya keren dan terjangkau! bayangin aja, dari west singapore ke eastnya (dari little India-Changi) gak lebih dari 3 $SG (Rp.21.000) by MRT only in 45 minutes ! (okelah kalo naik busway cuma 3.500, tapi nunggunya 2 jam!) nggak relevan kan antara kualitas dan harga yang harus dibayar. Gw pikir udah saatnya nih ORANG JAKARTA, bukan orang Indonesia yaah! lebih pinter untuk select an Issue. gw melihat kenaikan BBM adalah price yang memang harus dibayar sama pengguna BBM, jauh-jauhin dulu lah itu su'udzon korupsi (kalau kata aa'gym, husnudzon itu menenangkan). Orang jakarta itu disediain banyak mass.transport KRL, Busway, mikrolet, kopaja, bajaj, ojek dengan harga super murah sekalii! tapi masih tetep milih kredit motor dan mobil demi gengsi. point ini yang menurut gw harusnya di telaah ulang, mass transport kita yang di perbaiki dan sifat gengsi kita dan point terakhir adalah, coba aja orang Jakarta pada mau nurut, mau dibangun waterway, MRT, subway, dkk nya itu, it will be better for us guys! Tapi jakartans pada kebanyakan demo dan ngeluh, padahal 5 or 10 years later, itu bakal ngebawa kebaikan. bayangin aja, gw di singapore jalan jalan cuma ke Sentosa sama Marlion, cuma ke Ancol sama ke Monas kalo di Jakarta! there's nothin to offer in Singapore, but we have a lot of amazing place to offer but we didn't do much. SEDIH! Iya banget! So, saran dari gw adalah, gunakan mass.transport ajalah, sebagai pengguna KRL gw bangga kok dengan KRL sekarang, pelayananya lebih baik dan lebih nyaman! kalau nggak mau repot soal BBM ya jangan pake kendaraan bermotor lah. gitu aja kok repot! 

Q&A

found the result of my long time ago personality quiz, well, pretty much me.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

this is me, 7 years ago. hahaha, gettin old is very  weird.

when it comes to besfrriends.

this is me, all along, sitting in the biggest library in south east asia, alone and lonely. pathetic? no. i'm working on my undergraduate thesis now and feelin akward while people who passed by together with their couple and friends. once i was thinking, this is the risk if you writing ur thesis in last semester bcoz all of ur friend do the same thing, ur gonna busy with ur self  but on the other half of my brain, there's still my friend with their clique who still together, but me? i'm just questioning the way i'm doing friendship with my friends. am i that weird and really enjoy my self when i'm alone but jealous if i see other people chit chat with their friends, because i want too but i don't have one and then again, i'm starting to questioning, do i have real bestfriend or they just good friend? 

tea time

"lo juga harus menurunkan ego lo, penting ngga kesana dengan tujuannya, bukan cuma satu tujuan aja, tapi setelah itu apa..impian lo bukan di pending, tapi lo memprioritaskan mana yang lebih penting, nanti 2-3 tahun lagi sampe semuanya udah enak, pasti nggak seberat ini" ADR

D-1

Narnia novel, Caramel pop-corn and hot green tea 

somewhere in my heart, i'm still asking my self is it the rite thing to do? but i have faith in my heart, this will change something inside me, i believe that, there's always price to pay and the fees is one of them for having such an experience, stories that lasting forever, i just hope that this little step i made won't hurt anybody. i just hope that, this is the way i want to design my future, this is one step that i want to prove myself that i can, i have my family support, i have my own ability and that kind of thought spinning in my mind and my heart like crazy. D-1, before everything start to be fun, excited and adventurous. 

sunset

bed rest for today, been so tired and ready to take over february!

this february is also, one step of my life to responsible for what i choose, to listen my passion and let it be. to test my self, how far i would go to chase it and how i'll satiesfied being me and starting my own decision.

behave

being single is something. i have to say, as a single after long term relationship, i have to say i'm tired and relieved. there's nothing wrong being single as long as you happy. single doesn't mean your lonely, doesn't mean your not pretty or the worst, nggak laku. in one edition of cita cinta magazine the editor wrote:

"single is one step of your life when a girl could gain something big in her life, focus on career, and achieve everything you want to"

Aquila Asia Magazine

so its the flipside and fortunatly,i'm thingking the same like the editor wrote, i'm single and i don't regret it, i still manage to have fine relationship with my ex so do i start to make new friends with others, there's no boundaries after all and i'm settle with that, less complain and dont care about other people life. I have bestfriends to hang out and sharing stories and in my last semester in college i want to focus working on my undergraduate thesis and spending time with my buddies but it doesn't mean i'm not mingle, but there's the limit for mingling too. i'm not gonna start mingle or respond to a boy who just broke up or not qualified with my type. as a girl we have to smart enough to choose our mate. that's all i want to say. since one nossy girl starting fire to me, i'm not gonna stand still and do nothing, after call the fire brigade, i'll make sure i shut her with tons of water first. *so happy that my undergraduate thesis proposal is done* Alhamdulillah.

term and condition

thru my almost 4 years college, i've been invited to attending my friends wedding, which is super weird for me, wedding while you still taking studies? well, year after year i try to understand. there r lot of reason why they are married and accept every term and condition they have, well that's a commitment while me still learning how to step on earth, some of my friends ready to jump to another life and it was awesome for me, to take that path of life isn't easy, you still young and yet experience-less but having courage to take someting beyond your average ages decision. i should say that i proud of them, i really do happy for them and blast their marriage.

eka's wedding

wafa's wedding

kak tara's wedding

kak rizky's wedding

towil and kak Gifa's wedding

Deli's wedding

Ainun's wedding

time goes on and i should say that, my wedding dress is better, i learn a lot from guest and adapt it to my own wardrobe. somehow if i don't feel like in the mood to dress up, i just wear jeans and kaftan, i know, its not appropriate to attend a wedding with jeans so i swear i won't do it and yeah, HAVE A HAPPY WEDDING!