Monday, December 6, 2010


i just caught my brain slowly running. i'm boring,why?
  1. too much assignment to do
  2. having a lot miscommunication between me and my friends
  3. also with my boyfriend
  4. having no time to enjoy my self alone
  5. just so tired with new activities
  6. need quality time with my family
this six reasons,distracting my concentraion to do my assignment and its driving me crazy.
and i just need support,not shouting at me tell me i was misbehave. i know i was wrong but just dont tell me a thousands times,i'm not a cow by the way.i dont want you to know what is feels like being me,but just try to understand my situation.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

middle east festival 2011

new resposibility, new business, new people, new routine, new event but still the old me.
i make promise and i'll keep it.

Thursday, November 25, 2010


Breakthrough Binder got this from UIYSEP on monday,happy!
you know what is inside those envelope,rite? :)

Monday, November 22, 2010

love birds

today full of tears and laugh!
got a gift from besties,Nuni R. A she sew my dress with her own hand! :) love you cayy :)

have a first lovebird in arabic 2008 classes, HAPPY!
the mak comblang!
me and my bestpartner,Widi Rahman Adiat
the couple
congrats for both of you, i really do guys. you should bring love in arabic 08 and kindness in our heart to keep blushing and strong! :) love both of you :)

Sunday, November 21, 2010


have a wonderful surprise last night and so grateful having them! :) love you all
and for you who smile at me the day when i want to see ur face badly and
you just stood there, with ur backpack on,ur tired face and ur smelly t-shirt.
thanks man, for every day you makes me smile and loved :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010

new shoes

dont ask me for something i really hate or something that i cant give to you. cause it was heart breaking everytime i say no and you say yes.

Sunday, October 31, 2010


just back from lunch with my family and had much fun. Alhamdulillah :)
back to Kemang, places where my daddy always took us for Dinner, but we did it today for lunch. hehe. bittersweet memory said my mom. hehe.
thanks to my sister who treat us with her salary, hehe ;)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

truth or dare

i was playing truth or dare yesterday and got the question which is turned down my heart.
"what is feels like, living without father?"
well, its kinda heart attacking when your friend ask you directly. but its okay. i'll answer.
it was hard, living without your guardian and step on earth without his wise speech.
it was hard, living with ur mother who's just 37 and having 3 young sister and one older sister.
it was hard, living without grandpa and doesnt have male figure.
it was hard,living with sorrow and tears.
it was hard, living without the stability of financial.
but its okay, it was life changing moment for me and my family. it was the day when everything seems to be dark and there's no lights shone.
but its okay, it was the day when i got university of indonesia, my sisters went to high school, junior high and elementary school, cause we distracted with all the new stuff.
but its okay, it was the strange feeling to be more stronger, more responsible, more bold.
but its okay, it was the day when me and my family realize to love each other no matter what.

and everything okay, everything went well, after 2,5 years without my father, we maintance our financial, we goes to school with bright achievement, my old sister graduated and have a job, its okay to live without father financialy, but its still not okay living without his love around.

Friday, October 22, 2010

as the supporter

Olimpiade Budaya still become my recent activities. watch arabic football team was superb!
two games within one week!

signed contract with UIYSEP 2010! Yippiiieee!! :)
God, thanks for all the tears You made me cry, laugh You made me happy.
i never enough to say Alhamdulillah.

Monday, October 18, 2010


i went to the newest and hippiest hang out place in tebet on saturday night. but i felt different when i was there. i feel strange and the most important was my heart told me " i dont belong here". the crowd the music the smoke, i don't feel i comfortable there, i just wanna go home asap and lay back in my room.
since i'm in college, i went to mall several times. if i intend to go to mall, it would be with my family. may be it was started when my university located out of town and tehre are only have 2 mall around my campus and there are not such an entertaiment place to stay. so the saturday night shocked me and makes me realize, i'm just a geek.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

spare time

today is unbelievable. i arrive at my lovely campus 8 sharp in the morning and found my lecturer went to ministry of education for emergency meeting and all of my classmate have to attend the exchange class on friday. grr. but its not finish yet. my gramatical lecturer also went to ministry of education or whatsoever, i forgot. what's matter is i just have one class today but i bought 4 different books include dictionary. Oh God! but God is fair, after sleeping in the library,i attended:

this superb conferences between Indonesia and Indian, a new way to build a diplomatic relationship.

and this superb free lunch! for the first time trying Indian recipe,yummy!

my besties!

managering arabic futsal girls team, we lost versus chinese literature and the supporter!
i had much fun,Thanks God :)

Monday, October 11, 2010

TA'ARUF 2010

just so tired with all the freak situation that made me cry. i close the day with this photos with my 2010 junior in arabic literature. one of them, Nidya told me that "i'm the scary one" thanks for the compliment Nidya,hehe :)

Taylor Swift Innocent lyrics

I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything?
And everybody believed in you?

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
You're still an innocent

There's some things you can't speak of
But tonight you'll live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would sing what you know now then

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep?
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too

Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never to late to
Be brand new

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights are still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent.

Monday, October 4, 2010

well,since holiday was over and i start new semester, i'm busy! that's all i can say.
what's going on in my faculty is olimpiade budaya,well, i'm managing arabic literature
schedule,me as the manager.haha :)

and last weekend, i went to Bogor Agricultural University, invited as the bazaar participant.hehe!
fun but tired with all the situation and problems.hiks :(

Landhuis, comfy place to stay! :)

my room mate,yes six of us :) two of them japanesse, the black and white shirt :)

arabic stand, not so good.

IPB cultural fair committees! :)

Big thanks to Puspa, Vani, maulida, arabic literature 2007, Widi Rahman Adiyat, Dhirgo Kusumo Adi, Defeny Parentya Daud. love you all guys! :)

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

the story of midnight

well, here we go my heart sound..
well, i taught you were different, one kind of friend who have bigger guts, support, spirit and willingness, but how long i could wait, for seeing you useless here, waiting you to ask me
"what should we do then ?" to tell me what i have to do, i hate to tell you what to do or to send you a message or call you for yellin at you and say "dont forget to bring bla bla bla and do bla bla bla.."
you were the one who want it and i gave you the ideas, but you let me dissapointed, have you ask me? why you've been so tired? have you? :( you let me do this all by my self. you let me think i'm the one who workin for all this stupid things we wanna share at first..
i'm waiting for you to make a move, waiting you for do someting..
but waiting for you just like waiting rain in the draught, hopeless.

Friday, September 10, 2010

happy lebaran day!

Happy Lebaran day All, forgive me for everything i've done :)
love today mucho!
got a full of joy with lot of cute little boys and my family!
Thanks Allah, for gave me another chance to meet Lebaran day with so much fun :)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


after so sleepy did one of my top worship list, i did it last night in one of the biggest mosque in Jakarta and today is my youngest sister birthday. the 8 years old girl with stubborn and spoiled act,she really got everything she wanted, really. trust me.

since there isn't a man in my home, my mom invite him to attend my sis bday and help us around, hee beside,he bought her a gift too. envy you sister!

congrats sist, may Allah bless you in happy life and amazing future ;)
just D-1 from Lebaran Day! hee

Sunday, September 5, 2010

the dinner story

i hate someone who called "NATO" no action talk only.
and happened to me tonight around 7 p.m in the biggest mall ever.
what a shame.

Monday, August 30, 2010

first day at campus.

first day at my lovely-crowded faculty and so boriiiing!
unussually, i came late (08.30 peoplee!) and the lecturer just gave like 30 minutes introduction and left! haa. i've been guessing before :) and then i went to another class to join arabic speaking study and you know what! it was reararrange! whatttt!! at first i have 10.00-12.00 o'clock but my new schedule is 15.00-17.00!! OH GOD!!! WHAT THE HECK! so you know what i'm doing ? reading and sleeping in library,huu. what a long long dayyy!

talking and story telling time = gossiping!

But i have a superb dinner with my lovely classmate! and that was close my day happily added with new pair of sandals :)

well,we have to do this more often guys, hang out with all of you is fun! :)

Saturday, August 28, 2010

break-fasting time!

Ramadhan bring togetherness, and it is true! yippie!
I met my english course gank in friday and my junior high besties, junior high people! haa! love them :) we never been able to meet since two years ago, aahrg! miss them a lot!

in friday had a dinner at Bumbu Desa Cikini with super spicy sambals and Es Cendol! :)

Atynia, me, Kiki and Icha

and for the first time for me,i went to Grand Indonesia in saturday and checked out F21 and little thing she needs,both of them so cute :) but didn't find cute ring and necklace.hee

Adot & Tasya, we called ourself : Threesome!
still forgot why we named it.

three of us using samsung touch, both of them samsung star and me corby! what a coinsidence!

Love them!
friendship since junior high, three of us passed a lot of things together,haa! i just wanna laugh while remembering all of ours stupidity.hee!
hope our friendship stays forever girls :)

Thursday, August 26, 2010

today is fun and tiring, but its okay. today is my big sister graduation day 'university scale' and it was awesome!

Congrats Sist! :)

All picture,captured by : Ghulam M Nayazri.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010


my new class schedule annoyed me and they wouldn't be able to fix the sites till the due date and i've got thrilled about this!! i need more credit to graduate 3 and half year!! God, I hate those schedule.
if they always clash one and another how could i choose those study and how could my academic advisor agree with my choice.grr!
i need to go to campus,soon!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

all day activities.

this week, i'm full with event i have to attend and yesterday was the first event i took a part, my sister graduation but it is just faculty graduation, not university scale, so not so big matter.

in the morning, i went to the Bank with my mom and spent one and half hours, sighhh. what a line!

after that, went to Mall Ambasador buy some clothes for the university gradution on Thursday, at first we want to buy Abaya, arab traditional dress but i don't feel them and we jumped to this boutique and found this lovelyyyy tunic and skirt!

but it wasn't the end of my day, i went to Depok accompany my sist and help her with photography and etc.

meet my friend with the same name, Amelia Edriani as a choir in Faculty of public health graduation ceremony.

and end up dinner in Hema :)

and i cannot wait to wear those clothes on Thursdayyy! :) hee :)
hope the graduation ceremony went well and this week i'm full of Ifthor Jama'i,you know, this Holy month is Ramadhan, i am muslim and i'm fasting so having dinner after magrib are waiting for! hee but i have two Ifthor Jama'i meeting in the weekend, can't wait too!

Happy Fasting all ;)